If this is the only way i can express, than i will type it all out.
I really hope i can turn the time backk on Sunday. I hope it all doesn't happen. Why must it be him and not other guys? I really don't get it. He doesn't deserve this. But i have to accept, it is fated. The thing is now, after being out from the 'place', everything changed. Yes, EVERYTHING. I don't know how to explain it but it is heart-breaking. I know he did not meant it, but sometimes, i myself, felt so weak cause i can't handle you(he) and your problem now. I'm trying my very best to change it all around. I hope you really can change with your sincerity and just be strong to endure all this. I know you don't want all this to happen too. But, this is Life. Life is cruel. Life is also great in the other hand. I really, frankly, can't go throught this alone, but i know, you depend on me. I have to try,right? I'm trying, so please, let me. If you want to change to the old, then i know you can, you're a man right? So, what you waiting for? just forget about that little heart of yours and just remember Allah and always pray hard. Like i said, don't always think you're alone cause you never will be alone. I'm always here by your side. & i hope all those words that has come out from your mouth or the messages you texted, really is YOU. & I hope you meant it. Cause it gives me a lil' strength to fight this pain with you. I myself don't want you to suffer alone. What problem you have, it is also mine. I hate to see you behaving thid way. Yes, hate it very much. Stop with the 'laaa'. Saket kn hati. I know it came out. But, remember, don't let the emotions take over you. Cause you are the person SHOULD BE CONTROLLING YOUR FEELINGS. Really. Just prove to yourself you can do it cause you are special in your ways and if this is how you react to your problem, it shouldn't be. Be a man and just be strong towards yourself. Don't always think you can't and feeel so resltess and useless till you are very 'dumb' to let your heart to take over your Life. This problem means your life. Yes, I myself pretty worried about your Future. This is the year you have been waiting for, but this is whaat happen. I know it is saddening. Please, i understand your problems, and your feelings right now. But understand too, i'm pretty fragile. I'm trying to push you. I know you need peace, but we have to keep on moving. My advices are priceless, listen and react towards it. You wouldn't like teasers about you. Yes, then if you hate it, prove me and them wrong. You are strong, kind & just so good that sometimes, things will get back to you. There will always this point where things get wrong and you yourself change to a bad one. But if you just ingat Allah, pray and always think that you can, it is possible, okay? (: Just this, really, don't get so fcuk up about things i said. I will never blame you in this kind of condition okay. I'm also understandable person. I don't go around scolding and blaming people when i know they need help. I know you really need help. You have me and your family to rely on. I know you also depend on me, don't worry you did not stress me. But just i really hate it when you raise. So, if you don't want me to be crying all the time, now it is the time for you to be a real real man, and my knight, to fight for your own emotions. Just, now it is not the time for you to listen to your heart now. Listen to me or your family. & never think you are alone. You are a great human on Earth and this is just a challenge in reality. Let's face it and don't turn back. I'll be fighting with you here (: Don't worry. You will be fine if you really put in effort too. Take care♥
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